i've changed the date on the previous two entries..

i am really pissed off.


shiRo ♥ jaBei forever

shit! the date is ALL WRONG!!!!

i have noticed something here on my blog that pissed me off so much!!!
well the date!!! its the date!!!!!!
january 29 is my real birthday, i posted something on that date, and poof. shit. when i viewed my blog a while ago, i noticed it all!! our owning day is 27!!! not 26!!!! fuck this blog!!!!
and i cant even edit  the date!!!!!

PS: today is january 31, 2011 -9:59am fucker!!!
shiRo ♥ jaBei forever

happy birthday tatay :)

i love you tatay ko..soooo much!!
and i miss you!! :(

haixt drama2x na naman..meg ai di ku paghungita damu2x!!!!!cgehon ya pagid na!!
oh, she was bugging me with these hugeeee potato chips..
i love you meg!!! eehhh!!
and i really love your gift..tuod, wala plastikanay :)))
geh manug time na ehh.. uhm sa hulog2x piso lang kami daan..mwaaaahh!!!

shiRo ♥ jaBei forever

6th owning day!!

i am so surprised.
is this the first time i wrote about our owning day??
well, according to the labels below, it is. (owning day doesn't exist on my labels. -.-)
uh well, we haven't met yet..but i have enjoyed the time with her last night..
last evening, we're both wearing our jackets because it is soooo cooold. we ate fries (as usual) and then she helped me do my Computer Project (which is, i'm gonna finish after writing here) and which is, again, due tomorrow.
uh well. i am sorry if i haven't updated you since the day we broke up..
the two of us are still...i don't know..it is very complicated..
but i am sure that God has something to teach us, maybe He just wanted us to learn a thing about life..
i don't know, i still can't figure out what He's trying to tell us..
i really do not know :|

i made this on her phone. this is our hands :)

:(

haixt.
break-up hurts so much.





you feel so weak, so broken, so dead.
i think i just need someone who would make me realize that there is nothing broken in me..and that i should move on..someone who would say "i am still here..it isn't the end of the world after all" someone who would make me smile again..


i miss her..so much..i gladly would accept her back..but i'm so scared to be hurt again..
it's like dying -- i guess. but you could still feel the pain..

new phone number

it's my birthday celebration today. puh wala nalang gintuloy kay wala man ko bisita ah.

i am sort of disappointed kei Jab kay some days ago, she told me nga ara gid sya kung i-celebrate ko ang birthday ko. naga-wakal pa sya gani i don't know what i should do. i am so boreeed. and by the way, i changed my cellphone number. :)

dear meg ko,

tani mabasa mu ni meg bah..

i really regret breaking up with you, but i think, better nalang ni kesa sa magsuffer pa ta nga duwa everytime nga mag-away ta..we both know naman nga wala man japun pasinadtuan ni ang aton nga relasyon mung..forbidden gani bay?haixt kabudlay gid gali meg nuh?kung parting time na..but still, i keep on thinking nga indi ni and end sang tananx..i always try to accept the fact nga indi ikaw ang gin-assign ni God para sa akun...sakitx eh,abi mu haw.pero anu pa bi ang mahimu ta kay amu na na ang nakatakda..biskan anu pa gani ka-bato naton kag ginapilit naton nga mag-updanay, He would still find some ways para mafulfill ang mga naka-plano sa aton nga duwa..maybe He just wants us to learn something about life..

meg, i want you to know nga you made my life so special..you made me so happy..thank you meg for the friendship--and love.thanks for being a part of my life..thanks meg sa tanan..i've learned a lot from you..salamat sa 8 months mu nga pag-upod sakun..i hope nga someday, we will find the right person nga destined gid ya para saton..meg, palangga tagid ka yah..i never regret everything meg ko..except sa breakup ni gani hu..haixt puchat ga stop2x ang keyboard...i mean gabixo..haixt.

i love you so much meg.
i am so sorry kung imperfect ko.

boredom.

how could i really kill it?!


now playing:





 i am so bored!! i am sitting with nikki right now and i really wanna go home!!
but i still have some 30min to finish this thing..lol


we played volleyball for our PE practical exam..
and i wish i just acted like i am sick..
volleyball sucks!! look at me now, i feel like i am so tiiirreeedd!!
and my hands hurt!! i keep on batting the ball, and the ball is sooo hard!!
i hate it..
okay im outta here.
there so many morons here by now..
toods :)

SOME SHITS.

Most recent about me:

I have so many thoughts yet so little space. If you’re going to read this, be open minded or forever be ignorant. Don’t expect to know too much ‘about me’ by the end of this. Ahoy, I’m Jamie Dee and I’m 15 years old. I believe I am part of the minority of my age group that has matured a little too soon. A lot of people my age seem to be going out, getting really drunk all the time and it’s like I’ve already went through that phase. Don’t get me wrong though, I like to drink alcohol because it helps me gain confidence. I would love to be an outgoing, confident and completely content person, but I’m not. Instead I’m a shy, self-concious person in ‘real life’ around people I’m not familiar with. This sometimes holds me back from making new friends. Sometimes people ask me how I deal with loosing friends and getting hate, at the end of the day you just have to think to yourself ‘would I want to be friends with people that have such a disgusting personality anyway? no’. I think I’m extremely open minded and I would hate to judge someone without speaking to them first because I know what it feels like to be judged by people you don’t know. I don’t have any favourites. I don’t have a favourite colour, a favourite food, a favourite type of dress sense, a favourite type of music ect.. I think it’s because of how broad my taste is. I can be really happy and talkative and I can be really pissy and ignorant, I don’t choose to be that way. I’m far from wealthy but I’m not in the slightest ashamed, I look at it as an incentive to make something of myself. I have huge aspirations. I like to think of myself as a strong individual in many ways and like to maintain a positive persona, I can come across as if I don’t give a fuck, even if something is killing me inside. I find it difficult to let people in enough to trust them, but once you’re in, you’ll probably be a friend of mine for a long period of time. Most peoples main goals in life are: get a good job, get a nice house and car, get married and have kids, my goals are completely different. I don’t care about how rich I am, as long as I have enough to live life comfortably. I don’t care about how much my job pays, aslong as I end up doing something that I enjoy! and finally I just want to do everything I want to during life. I don’t want to be an OAP sitting in a rocking chair, stating all the things I’d wish I’d done when I was younger. Carpe diem! seize the day. Lastly, I hate relationships. Why tie yourself down at such a young age? there will be a point in your life when you’ll get married, have kids ect so be single, have fun and freedom while it lasts. You don’t need to be dead serious in love to cuddle up with someone and watch a film with them, save yourself the heart break. I hope you haven’t formed too much of an opinion on me, after all I’m just an average boy, blogging my interests and things I find fascinating/beautiful. Don’t judge me either, just because I have a high number of followers does not mean I’m arrogant or stuck up, I’m quite the opposite. Ciao!

Old about me:

it’s been a while since i’ve thought about how i can put myself into words. i can’t fully describe myself to you, but i can be honest and give you a rough impression of my personality, that’s if you’re reading with an open mind. i’m generally a positive character, but i do have my downfalls, like everyone else. i’ve given up trying hard to please everyone, defend myself and trying to make people be friends with me. i’ve learned that life will naturally take its course. i went through dark times of hatred and depression but i can honestly say i’m now a stronger person. i have big aspirations which seems to be unusual in my home town of sunderland. i want to move away and make something of my life, i don’t want to stay here and watch the same boring people grow old. i’m not being big headed here, but some people seem to think a lot of me. don’t ever think i’m better than you, because i’m not, i’m equal to everyone else. i’ve came from a shit background but i learned to live with it, it wont stop me from making a decent life for me and my future family, i will break the cycle of council houses, benefits and just managing to get by. i remember the time when there was just me and my father living together, he was so poor that we had to walk around a mile each week to go get to ‘aldi’ for our weekly shopping. i’m not ashamed that i’m not wealthy, it just gives me the sheer motivation to try harder to finally have a decent, happy-go-lucky life. i like to maintain a strong persona, whining on about my problems isn’t going to solve anything, although, if i’m honest, i do like attention. in life i’ve lost a lot of friends for accepting myself, wearing what i want and listening to the music i love ect. but on the whole: it’s helped me feel comfortable in myself and move on and make new friends with the same interests. if your friends can’t accept you for who you are then seriously, who will? i love to be organised but fail as i have a lack of enthusiasm. you will be lucky to see my bedroom floor the majority of the time. i can be a very loving and affectionate person. i adore making people feel better about themselves because i know what it’s like to hit rock bottom and hate yourself. daym this is personal. ok, cons about me. i let certain people into my life too easy. i give people trust without thinking and that usually back fires on me. i get scared of this thing called ‘love’, i don’t want to settle down with someone this young, i just want someone i can have a good time with, can smile with and make memories with. i may have alot of followers but please don’t think that makes me arrogant, it just makes me feel lucky. after reading this i hope you haven’t formed too much of an opinion on me as i’d rather you find out what i’m like for yourself. 

My list of favourite things:

tumblr, little animal elastic bands, nice pairs of socks, aftershave that smells lovely all day long, really sweet and milky tea, french fancies, caramel frappichinos, blackberry bold 9700, topman, acoustic songs, skinny jeans that are so tight you loose circulation in your thighs, bombay bicycle club, gig tickets, halloween, house partys, them red disposable cups that you always see in movies, marianas trench, milka popping candy chocolate, duty free, vintage shops, menthol cigarettes, jack daniels and coke, reese cups, weheartit, winter, christmas, looking at the time and seeing 11:11, tan lines, that feeling when you’ve been out in the snow all day and you come home to sit by the fire with a knitted blanket and some hot chocolate, nails that are cut(not bitten off), charity shops, old knitted jumpers, the guitar that sits in the corner of my room that i can’t play, magnetic man, laura marling, gabrielle aplin, hayley williams, beautiful landscapes that literally leave you speechless, taking so many photos, getting something you’ve wanted for so long, really pretty people that don’t know it, shyness, cuddling up to someone, dvd nights in, a day to remember, times when you enjoy being alone, hopes and dreams, the people you can actually trust and rely on, old clothes that you can cut up and wear again, when something you see/read makes you say ‘oh my god’ or ‘wow’ out loud, finding beauty in the smallest things, grateful people, pale colours, tanned skin, naturally curly hair, a day to remember, the xx, crystal castles, lookbook, cherry bakewells, french fancies, good hair days, meaningful tattoos, ke$ha, the moments you never forget.

http://jamjars.tumblr.com/aboutme

a day with her.

i am back.
oh my God.
my desk is full of brown ants! (goosebumps!!!)
eeeww!!!
who the heck made this crime?!!

anyway (i am really trying to ignore them all!)
well, the keyboard sucks too huh.
i have spent the entire afternoon with Jab.
we had a great afternoon cuddling each other. ---at last i have found a perfect word for it :D
then later on, we ate street foods, arroz caldo and batchoy.

and then, thank God.
her Aunt gave us a big plate of spaghetti because it was Jabei`s neice`s 7th month!
i love that spaghetti. too bad i just ate enough.
i still want more --- there`s still more.. but i really have to go home :(
it was 5:45 when i finally reached this place again..

have to go!! uhh. lol

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad, carry you around when your arthritis is bad. I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches, build you a fire if the furnace breaks. I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold. Need you, feed you, I'll even let you hold the remote control. So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink, put you to bed when you've had too much to drink. All I wanna do is grow old with you. - Adam Sandler


i am planning to sing this song to her in our first monthsary :)
i love her sooooooo much!!!

two is better than one.

I have enjoyed the previous night with my Jab. Wala ko kacomputer. That is why I didn't open this blog yesterday. We chose to be with each other nalang, kay sang last Wednesday night, wala kami mayu ka updanay eh.

eeehh. and Two is Better than One gatukar gid yah paulit2x ah!!
i think it would be my Last Song Syndrome again.



Two Is Better Than One ~ Taylor Swift and – Boys Like Girls Song Lyrics


oh..haixt.
i miss my meg so much already.

BAD DAY..

well...
gna kapuy gid ia..hehehe y gid ko ka score a ni isa ah..
klinit blaw..
we played basketball gna lang..pa una una score 2 points..lang galing Mung te amu na eh.
im waiting for my meg to come..kay ma prayer meeting kami da an heheh..

so thats all for todays happening..haixt  im worried bawt my resume and all...
wraaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!

peace..:)

raining..

well,here we are now!!!
its me btw.jab..
meg is with me..sitting on my right side..
shes so cute lately..
and shes cuter now..
i eachu her ..hehe..
so no war so far..hope..till friday.
bbyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeee, now..

just a random post.

i don't feel like going to school so i went here.hehe
it was raining outside and i feel so cold. and i don't want to get wet when i ride the bus.
i miss my meg so much right now.
actually, i called her twice at 7am, she said she was missing me too.
anyway, about last night, our tongue was hurt. yeah.
we ate super hot and super big french fries.
well, it was worth it :) t'was sooo yummeh.lol
ohohohohohohohoh!!

uhm so that's it for today. i really hae to get outta here.
buh-bye!!!

HEY :|

i am so sorry for being so busy these past days..ndi ta na ka ma-update sang tarong..haixt

uhm..right now, i think we were having a fight..kay i want to buy her a Power Balance and i asked her kung anu color gusto nya (blue and white were the choices) i don't want to lie to her..so i told her that i am on the computer shop..wala nya na ku jun ginreplyan bala..i think she's angry.. :(

why am i soooo stupid???!!!

tumblr. :)

errrrr!!!!!
raaaawrr!!!
im soo tired today..
and i have a new cologne!!
uhm..so much addicted to tumblr right now.. have to go :)

oh my GOD.

it's random you know..but i think it would be my LSS now..
errm..Jab and I sorta had a fight. i want her to be with me right now..but then, as usual..she wont come her.pffft.
i hope i would die sooon.

Deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot imagine that you could ever find your way to a better place. But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place, and now have moved on, sometimes this will bring hope. -Elizabeth Gilbert

hello.

what now??
we're together :)

omg.i'm gonna post our pics.

wtf.i remembered i must not do it. haha!!

wooot. she was checking out my cleavage.

online!!!!!!!!!

i love heeeerrrrrr!!!!!

These are the things I remember of my love. A warm hand, a warm breath. Your warm mouth. Your arms around mine... I remember feeling safe, cease-less. Like one person. The two of us still, at rest, entwined... I remember how I felt the first time I kissed you. It felt like the high dive. What do you remember? How will I ever know what was inside your heart? Where did they go? All the things we think and feel but don't say. Dear Valentine... These are the things I never told you. These are the things I need you to know. That I loved you always. And my love was so big, it lives still after you're gone. I'd like to tell you that I would do it differently. That if I had one more day I would do everything right. But I know that isn't true. I'd make all the same mistakes. That is except one. I wouldn't say goodbye. -Everwood

look at him :)

he's seth..hehe

i can't give enough infos because i don't know him yet..

i'll give it a try..

wahahahah!!

errm.i miss Jab so much :(

it's pretty boring here..

i miss her to death!!!!!

but we'll be seeing each other later at 6pm..

i'll still be waiting over ages!!!!!

and i don't wanna go home!!!!

hey hey!!

uhm..meju wai na klase eh..haha!!
so nagcomp ku di anay..
i am sorry if i'm not updating you ha, kay i'm still loyal sa akun nga diary..hehe
and i don't trust this place..i just want to post random things that's why i made this. :)

anyway..
i am just glad to say that Jab gave me a brown stripped shirt last night!!
and I LOVE IT!!! so much!! hehe..and then we ate fries sa plaza..
kag gindul-ong ya ku dayon sa balay..how sweet.hehe

uhm..but right now, i think we're not okay..
kay aga pa ko gani nag-online..she hates it eh..
i don't know. maybe i should get outta here now..


qoute:


Sometimes when in love, we doubt that which we most believe.




PS:
I ♥ her. soo much.

waiting for tonight..:)

hi..aku gleh si jab ah..
im waiting for my meg...so ive decided to right here as ive promise to her..
that these days il gonna post sumthing in our blog..
so nothing is special today,,im preparing a surprise gift for my meg's b day..so keep quiet..:O..
  shes coming nahh..sooo...next time ulet!!byeeeeeeeeeeeee..



its..05:45pm..
p.c 10..
04.01.2011

uhm. what now??

hehe :)
hello!!!
uhm..no class!! i love it..
but i'll be back later at 1pm..social science class..
reporting again..

anyway, we had a good time last night :)
i gave her the boxers that i've ordered a month ago..
and i think she likes it :) err..g2g byee!!

9TH MEG DAY :)

EEEHHHHH!!!

how i love this day kahit hindi pa tapos!! :)
i am sorry if i haven't updated you for ages!!
i didn't get the chance to be online these past few days kay busy gid bi in preparation for the New Year's Day..but now, i'm here!! again!!

i just want to greet you a happy new year danay first of all!! eeehhh!!
2011 na..and my birthday is getting reallllllyyy near!!
uhm, i expect changes this new year, not only in myself, but in everybody too..
kag i hope na we will all be changing for the better...not for worse.lol

and now, January 3, 2011, is our 9th monthsary!!!
nagkadto to xa gani kagina sa balay..kay i really am not feeling well lately..
so she visited me :)
i love herrr!!!!

w8. brb.